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sick but stronger

if you hang out with me or saw me during school this week. you probably saw me coughing atlesat once. ive just been really sick this whole. and even if i am sick enough not to go to school my mom always asks me "oh Alex are you gonna die" and in my head i think to myself are you for realll? but i answer and "no im not sick" and start heading upstairs and get ready for school before she even says "well you gotta go to shcool then" but this time she said "its your fault for getting sick" and well if i think about it actually is. ive been sick for the past month but a little sick and it wasnt getting worse or better but saturday last week it started getting worse and to cure it on sunday night when it was freezing i went out to play basketball. it was funnn. monday i actually left school early tats when i was throwing up everywhere in the bathroom except the toilet cuz for some reason when i barf my eyes get closed so i missed the toilet pretty bad. wednesday i walked in the rain with some friends to the choral concert and walked with a friend again after and played basketball thursday night.

yepp i suck at taking cae of myself especially when im sick.

but this week spirtually was really good. i dont know why this week was maybe because my friend went to church for the first time and it just brought so much happiness inside of me. 

i prayed alot this week. praying just really helps alott if i got alot on me.

reading the Word and going in more depth of the verses tat kevin talked about at POP21 in my spare time to learn more about that bible verse.

and my music seems to be changing all the rap and "GANGSTER HOOD HOPPING THUG S***" just doesnt seem to attract my ears as much as it did before.

and this school year i seem to be growing alot, becoming more mature. and since my brother is a freshman and whenever i get mad at him my parents say it how i acted when i was freshman and if i look back at it i was a jerk to my parents. but now im helping more than i get in the way. my anger seemed to go down to in my house. cept just one time this week when we got our phones on monday. my brother was suppose to get the voyager the dude gave my mom the dare and my brother started giving attitude towards my mom and tat really made me mom cuz i didnt like him talkin to my mom like that so i ran straight up to him and punched him and said some stuff i shouldnt have said. and the worst part was it was my brothers birthday. yupp i felt super bad about that but i dont think hes gonna talk to my mom like that and if he does i shall handle it in a different matter.

i just wanna talk about my friend again. the one who went to church for the first time last week saturday. it was the revival and at first i didnt recognize her cuz i thought she would be nervous and stuff but she was just laying herself down to God and it just brought tears to my eyes. as i go to know my friend more i found out she had a rough past and changed alot into a better person and found God and im glad she did instead going on a road that she would regret. i hope tat her fait just becomes stronger with God.

Exodus 14:14

 The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still

i read sarahs blog and her thing about yesterdays service was rightttt. worship with less insturments just sounded so foreal with all the voices filling the room not that with more intsturnents it sounds bad or anything. also im glad that her and her mom are doing good :)

oh and i acutally am writing a song haha.

the song Live Your Life by T.I. Feat. Rihanna 

the one with numa numa song in the background

i actually hav a remake in the process called Live For God 

its in the works just got the chorus and verse one done 

i hope everybody has a good and safe winter break.

lets all chill

5 days till Christ's birthday :)

My Story

the past couple of months have been pretty crazy for me. Crazy in a good way though. About a year ago which was sophmore year it was really when I became a person that i really didnt like when i look back at it today. It was a point where I thought i was all tight and cool because i would cuss and do random junk and mess around with people. Pull pranks that might hurt others for enjoyment. i was like that from a year ago to around october. My life was just really stupid and i wanted to what i wanted to do and no one can really stop me. It got to the point where i got involved with drugs and stuff. I was offered it by one of my friends and i told him I would consider doing it. It was really bugging me so i asked some of my close friends whether i should or not. I thoght they would help me since im realy tight with them and all but they ened making the situation much worse than it already was. There answers were stuff i already knew about stuff i can learn in health and some even told me that i can drink but i shouldnt smoke. So i ended up telling my friend that I would go do it with him on a friday. It was planned for the first friday of October. I didnt tell anyone about the friday because they might just end up bugging me. That whole week went by really slow and during that slow week i dont know something hit me(if i look back on it today it was God telling me i got better things to do) and i decided to go with my friend Kevin to his church's friday night service. That service really just opened my eyes to what Ive doing wrong with my life and that i still had a chance to turn it around. ive said those words before though "It opened my eyes" usually after i went some church retreat when i was high for God but all the time it would just fade away but this time i made a promise to myself that i wouldnt fade away and that it would last forever. since that friday ive been going to Friday night services at PBC every week and i now started going there on sundays as well. in the past for me Church really just a hang out spot. Sometimes on sundays i would even ditch service and just hang out. and if i did go to service i would just watch for the clock to wind down so that i can leave. now when i go i listen to Wilson's sermon. i dont know maybe because in the past i was still a little kid and i didnt understand everything or maybe it was just because i had other things in my mind. the point is that now i understand alot more and get alot more from sermons.  during this time from October to today God has also been sending me signs as well. i honestly think that God didnt want me to go to homecoming at my school. because instead i ended up going to a family dinner. At that dinner i realized one of my aunts werent there and when i asked where she was i was told she is sick and stayed home. at first i just thought she had to cold but we went to see her at my cousins after i found out that it was much worse. she used to have cancer and was healed but was very ill again.  seeing her in that condition showed me how selfish of person i am caring mostly for myself while others are going through rough times and i broke down into tears right there. Purity as well only couple people know about the story of the "girl" im not going to get in to but if you want to know ill tell you. purity is something im considering as well. im trying to focus on God right now and i really dont want to anything to distract me.

with all this im gradually cussing less, more optimistic, and life seems to be going uphill for me and the Denver Nuggets.

prayer requests

my aunt- who i still ill and i just wish her the best

my dad- hes in korea working hard just to keep me and my mom and my lil bro happy and i love him for everything

koinoinia-just that the people who to the benfit concert dont forget about the orphans who have much less than and that they will find parents and be happy.

myself- just that i know whats important in my life which is God.

-alexlee